So…. it’ pretty common knowledge that I’m “trying” (38 year old, married… duh) and after years of this crap, I may be a bit sensitive about the subject. But seriously, I am not dumb enough to know that I am NOT being overly sensitive when it comes to what happened to me recently as described below.
A bit of background….
A couple of weeks ago, I thought that I was pregnant (I FELT pregnant, my period was late, my boobies were sore, nausea, headaches, etc, etc). I took a couple of tests — negative! BUT, my acupuncturist (LOVE HER) had really helped me to be “regular” so I was a believer, based on the symptoms…
… yet, 10 days late, the lovely “auntie flow” (A.F. is the acronym used in many infertility message boards) reared her ugly head and showed up much to my dismay — OF COURSE, exactly one DAY after I attended the “Make a Wish Foundation’s Wine & Wishes event”, where I declined numerous glasses of fabulous wine “just in case” — grrrrrr! <sigh>…such is my life, a la the comic strip, “Born Loser”.
I had a regularly scheduled Gyno appointment the next day: Monday. It all went well, since my flow was pretty light at that point. However, my “oh so lovely” gyno proceeded to lecture me about how “I ain’t getting any younger” — thanks, bitch!
I requested hormone tests (not suggested by my gyno, but she agreed once I asked), since last year I was diagnosed with low Estrogen… wondered if Acupuncture could have improved my situation?
Cut to Thursday afternoon…
I call my Gyno’s office (hello? I have not heard from them… I was told I would have the results within 24 hours). The receptionist tells me that there is a note on my lab test that “everything is normal” — hurrah! (totally psyched, of course). So, then I call back thinking I could request Clomid (hey, maybe it will work this time since low Estrogen is no longer a factor right?) — the Fucking nurse practitioner calls me back and proceeds to bring me to tears:
Nurse Practitioner (when asked if I could try Clomid again): “NO…. (condescending voice) your Estrogen levels are low and your FSH levels are a bit high” — “WHY do you think you should try Clomid?”…
Me: “Well, the receptionist told me that my tests were normal AND THAT’S WHY I thought I’d try Clomid again” — (fuck, you’d think I was trying to pull a fast one over here).
Nurse Practitioner: “You should talk to a doctor about your lab results NOT the receptionist”
Okay fucking bitch, if a doctor would have called me I would have spoken to the DOCTOR.
Then she goes on to say that the Reproductive Science people recommended injections and “don’t I think they know what’s best???” I’m sorry, but what a bitch! Also, what if I HADN’T called back to request Clomid??? I would have just proceeded thinking my hormones were at a normal state… this is completely irresponsible and unacceptable… especially given my advanced age. Time is OF THE ESSENCE.
Needless to say, I’m looking for a new Gynecologist… any recommendations in the SF East Bay Area??
